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[21 Jul 2005|10:01pm] |
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I already wrote a review of Half Blood Prince on MySpace, but I'll do another one on here for posterity's sake and to kill time before atomic bowling tonight.
I should just say straight out that my favorite Harry Potter books remain to this day Prisoner of Azkaban and Order of the Phoenix. Those were the two books I believe changed the series from just an ordinary kids' book into something much much more. Compared to those, Half-Blood Prince seems something of a disappointment, which isn't really that surprising to me. Goblet of Fire was a letdown to me after Prisoner, and there was just no way to follow up Order of the Phoenix without spoiling book seven. It's easier to enjoy book six if you just accept it as a midpoint in the series, a crossroads between the action and drama of book five and what's sure to be the climax in book seven. But in any case, there are still a lot of great moments in HBP. A wiser, more mature Harry, who is finally graduating to heroic status as far as I'm concerned. The backstory on Voldemort makes his character more compelling than ever, providing the weaknesses that make him both a fuller character, as well as the tools Harry needs to destroy him. I think there's more to both Draco and Snape than this book would have us believe - I think at least one of them will be redeemed and one more will sacrifice themselves for the greater good - that is, if Snape hasn't done that already... Dumbledore, what can I say, we all knew it was coming, but I didn't expect it to be as emotional as it was. I still don't think we've seen the last of Sirius Black, especially given that cryptic note inside the necklace - the last initial was a B, remember. The relationship between Ron and Hermione is so naturally written, with all the jealousy and anger, but all the friendship and devotion that underlies it. No kiss yet, but it's coming, all those lonely nights on the road searching for Voldemort in book seven. Harry and Ginny, precious and realistic, the Spiderman-esque "ending" a little out of left field, but fitting nonetheless. All in all, I'm more or less satisfied with the book, a hell of a lot more than I was with the Prisoner of Azkaban movie. I think we were all expecting more, but like I said, what more could there have been without taking anything away from the next book?
So yes, those are just my thoughts, feel free to agree or disagree. Right now, I'm reading "Stardust" by Neil Gaiman, and I have the first Wheel of Time book. Wow, this entry was nerdy.
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[12 Jul 2005|01:14am] |
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Saturday is officially Harry Potter day. I somehow wound up with that day off from work, so all I'm going to do is wait for Amazon to deliver the book, then curl up with it and a pint of Ben and Jerry's mint cookie ice cream. No contact with the outside world until it's all been read. I'm just warning you.
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[05 Jul 2005|01:03pm] |
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Feeling better today since I somehow negotiated my way into getting today off from work. I think I'm going to drive over to Target since it's the one place that has the ability to make me feel better. I think some cheap clothes and DVDs are just what I need right now.
I also pre-ordered (finally!) Harry Potter from Amazon. Guaranteed release day delivery. Woohoo. And with less than two weeks to go now.
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[04 Jul 2005|01:31am] |
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I just got home from work and I have to be back at work in eight hours.
I hate 4th of July.
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[26 Jun 2005|01:03pm] |
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If you want to know the entire story (or at least the parts that matter), check out my blog on MySpace, because I really have no energy to repeat it all here.
My parents and Rachel are coming to visit tonight. This makes me happy.
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[24 Jun 2005|07:13pm] |
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I just had a heart attack. I'm standing by our entertainment center, flipping through the channels. I'm checking out the Degrassi marathon they're playing on the N right now and out of the corner of my eye, I see something small run by. My first thought is that Hampty somehow got out of his cage, but when I turn to look at it, I see it's a small brown mouse! So cute, but it scared the crap out of me. This explains why Hampty's carrot snacks disappeared awhile back, why James' bag of rice had been chewed through, and how our garbage bags got torn up last month. We have mice!
Lots of stuff has been happening recently, some good, some bad, and some really really good. I'm just trying to enjoy it the best I can because god knows this kind of good doesn't usually stay in my life very long. I'll write about it soon.
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[19 Jun 2005|12:25am] |
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My feet hurt.
For tonight anyway, at least it isn't my heart.
This morning, magical gardeners appeared and now we actually have a semblance of a yard. Honestly, we have a walkway I didn't even know existed. I don't know where the gardeners came from either, but I'm not going to question it, at least not until the bill comes in the mail.
Barry Bonds was at the Boardwalk today and I totally missed him. Not like I'm a fan or anything (in fact, it's quite the opposite), but a celebrity's a celebrity. And it's the biggest one we've had here since Tiffany performed last July.
Today was my half-birthday, so in six months, I'll be 22. It's just now hitting me that all the good birthdays - 16, 18, 21 - are behind me. The next big one will be my 30th and god knows by that point, the last thing I'll be doing is looking forward to my birthdays.
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[16 Jun 2005|10:28pm] |
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Tagged (no sexual content implied) by ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) haikualu
five songs I currently like and listen to often:
1. Disco 2000 - Nick Cave
2. Next to You - Bell X1
3. I'm Not the One - Kid Lightning
4. Hey, That's No Way to Say Goodbye - Leonard Cohen
5. Philadelphia - Neil Young
five of life's simple pleasures:
1. Being able to turn off your alarm and sleep in your warm bed for five more minutes
2. Having the exact song you want to play come on the radio/CD player/whatever the exact moment you start thinking about it
3. Popsicles
4. Chatting in parking lots until 3AM because you never once stopped to consider the time
5. Love. Most of the time, it's not simple, but it's something that should be. And when you find love that is, in whatever form, it's the best thing on earth.
Tag, you're it: dreadoves, velvethope, aldariel
So in good news, I:
- got an A on my senior thesis and in my senior thesis class.
- trained people at work for the first time today.
- had a nice chat with an ex-crush/hook-up today, which makes realize that of the people I have kissed in lifetime, I only talk to two anymore. And I work with both of them. Strange.
- talked on the phone with my parents for two hours, which was also very nice, and makes me realize how much I miss being able to talk to them on an everyday basis.
- worked 8:30-5 and didn't think about him once.
Day by day, my friends. Day by day.
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[12 Jun 2005|12:02am] |
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I think there's a Frank Sinatra song about Saturday nights being the loneliest nights in the world. And god knows you don't fuck with Frank Sinatra. I think I just feel at loose ends tonight. For several reasons. A bunch of my friends graduated today and while I am so happy for them all, it reminds me again of how quickly everything passes you by. It feels like just yesterday we were all sitting in the hallways of D2 listening to "Propane." Now everyone but me and Steve has graduated and is moving on with their lives and it feels like getting left behind. Not really, I know, but that's just how it feels.
I should have known that getting over him wouldn't be that easy, and it's not. Even when I'm furious at him, even when I know that he's just rotten cheese, even when everything and everyone I know are saying to forget it, there's still a part of me that wants to hang on. A part of me that still sees some hope and some good in this. Or maybe I just want to see the good. Maybe I just want to stay in this little bubble of unspoken unrequited emotion because it's easier than the real thing. The good thing about hopeless dreams is that they're safe because they can never come true. They don't require you to be brave and take chances and actually call the boy from three weeks ago. You can just hide behind your feelings for this other person and blame all of your motionlessness and emotional stunted-ness on them. I should know, I've been doing it for more than a year now. God knows I love me some moldy cheese.
Life always seems harder in the night. I'll be better tomorrow, I promise.
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[09 Jun 2005|12:34am] |
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Holy crap is MySpace addicting. I knew there was a reason I was just saying no this whole time.
It's really sad when romance novels and dirty text messaging are the most action you've seen in weeks.
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[08 Jun 2005|12:05am] |
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I'm going to take Italo Calvino's advice and replace sex (or at least thinking about sex) with reading. I feel like I need to expand my literary horizons past just school reading and The Highland Warrior's Bride. To that extent, I am going to the library tomorrow. Which means... recommendation time. What should I read? I want your opinions. I need to change my reading habits. Because until then, it's just more Highland Warrior's Bride.
I slept almost all day today. It was so nice. I forgot how great summer can be.
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[06 Jun 2005|11:24pm] |
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I'm done. With class, with the paper, with school in general. It feels like such a relief, but at the same time, I'm realizing that the end of school also means certain people are graduating or leaving or both. At this time next year, this is going to be me.
I'm also done with him. After everything, today he has the audacity to ask if I'm mad at him. Not like he's apologized for blaming everything on me on Saturday and telling me that I need to just do what I'm told, or for making me cry. I should really know better than to develop feelings for some 29 year old Boardwalk supervisor who lives at home with his parents.
In fact, I think I'm done with men in general. Not forever, but I have no energy for this kind of emotion right now. I wish I could just fuck and have it be that, but I'm not, and I'm tired of constantly being disappointed. Plus, I'm leaving in three months for Washington, and then graduating three months after that, so really, why bother? Besides, all my misery over guys makes the rest of my life miserable as well, and who wants that?
Besides, it's summer, and I finally have the time to sleep. And eat. I can't believe I just said that.
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[04 Jun 2005|10:54pm] |
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The good thing about having a crush on your boss is that it makes it that much easier to get over it when he dicks you over at work.
The paper's done, 26 pages before editing and images. I'm actually pretty proud of it. And it's not due til Monday at 8AM. Tomorrow will be spent sleeping and doing the aforementioned editing.
Please don't draw any conclusions to the fact I'm listening to the Cure right now.
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[01 Jun 2005|10:35pm] |
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Metaphor time:
So my hamster's wheel is getting pretty squeeky, so I take it out to oil it. Hampty goes crazy. He's running around in circles inside his cage, and when I take him out to calm him down, he gets more hyper and tries to run underneath the fridge. I said, I guess Hampty doesn't know what to do with his life now that his wheel is gone.
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[01 Jun 2005|04:31pm] |
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When a group of environmental activists came to my door and started to talk to me about increased Solar energy production as a way of decreasing power plant emissions, my first response was, how much is this going to cost me?
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[29 May 2005|03:22pm] |
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Not much to say for the last week. I'm consumed by my thesis, which is the way it should be, I guess. Sixteen pages done, and I'm only about halfway to the end. I remember when I used to complain about writing three pages. Oh, the good old days of being a freshman.
Summer is in full swing at the Boardwalk, which means work is a bitch. Lots of stress there. At least school will be over in a week, and hopefully my sanity will return. In the meantime, I'm going to start doing a bit of late spring cleaning on my life, which means finally dealing with unspoken feelings, connecting back to the past, and working on a potential future. Lots to do, I should probably start now.
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[22 May 2005|12:36am] |
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Tell me, why is the day after such a letdown?
Warning: Star Wars review ahead.
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So all in all, I have to say I was pretty pleased with Revenge of the Sith. The first half is on the slow side but then there's that one moment around the middle that jerks you out of your seat and from then on, it's pretty amazing. I just sat there with my mouth hanging open for a good twenty minutes around this point. I swear, it is that crazy. The acting and dialogue leave much to be desired, no surprise there, and I swear, after Palpatine gets light-saber shocked by Mace Windu, he looks like one of the stages of the Smeagol-Gollum transformation in Return of the King. I really thought he was going to mutter something about his "precious" at one point. Ewan McGregor is of course wonderful and ass-kicking, as are Yoda and the Wookies. I have such an urge now to watch the original trilogy now. Maybe after school's over. Which is in two weeks, yikes.
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[18 May 2005|01:30pm] |
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So our kitchen officially smells which means the inevitable has finally arrived: it's time to do dishes. Bah. How two people who are only home half the time manage to accumulate so many dishes is beyond me, but it probably has something to do with the last time we did dishes being more than a month ago. Oy. Plus our bathroom sink is now clogged and Draino is not doing the trick. Wow, total flashback to last summer.
I really did not want to like the new Coldplay album. But dude...it's good. At least the songs I've heard so far. "Fix You" is the new "Scientist" which was the new "Yellow." I've also been downloading a lot of stuff from KCRW, which has some of the best live and acoustic versions of songs ever.
Dude, Stars Wars comes out tomorrow...well, actually tonight at midnight. The SC shows are all sold out, but not Watsonville's...so I might be there after work gets out. Holy f'ing crap, I am excited. Even though I don't think it will live up to the Lord of the Rings finale (but seriously, what could?) But I am so looking forward to seeing Ewan kick that whiny Anikan's ass into the lava pit...and then seeing Vader rise. And of course seeing Chewbacca and baby Luke and Leia...seriously, CAN'T WAIT.
Ok, time to stop procrastinating and do dishes before work.
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[15 May 2005|11:51pm] |
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Screw the last entry. I'm tired of saying practically the same thing over and over again in different ways. The bottom line is that I either need to act or move on. Now. Before I fall into this any deeper than I already am. And above all else I need to keep track of what's really important. And what is important goes so beyond stagnant meaningless crushes. It's time for a change, in more ways than one.
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[15 May 2005|07:29pm] |
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What makes you most pathetic is not that you thought you guys would really go out, but that you actually let yourself get excited about it. Hah, don't you now by now that the minute you let yourself enjoy any kind of happiness over a guy, somehow they will inevitably let you down? You shouldn't be surprised, and you're not, not really. Which might be the most pathetic thing of all, that you've actually reached the point where you expect to be let down. God, I am so tired.
The good is that I'm finally making progress on the thesis, putting together a five page outline and gathering all my final sources. I'll start writing this week, which gives me a good solid three and a half weeks to finish it all up. It's amazing how much schoolwork you can get done when you're emotionally/physically/sexually frustrated.
And sitting in a parking lot chatting until 2 in the morning helps as well.
I love that Sunday night is the only time I have to run errands anymore.
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